I agreed to take my turn tending the Well on the same day that I first arrived here. Today I completed my 63rd trip around the Sun and it was fitting to spend it in reflection. I didn’t know when I joined this group that I was entering a momentous year of change. What a wild ride it has been.
What I find myself in is a sensation that I am not sure I have ever felt before, at least not that I remember. I am dumbstruck with awe.
I found myself musing on each step of my journey in this body, with this consciousness, on this planet. How each step, many of which seemed foolish, or impulsive, created a new web of meaning. How each new web of meaning touched other beings on other journeys and turned and twisted and wove something different and unique for them and for me.
I could see patterns that I never imagined were there. Woven into the warp of this singular human life were innumerable ancestors and all their secrets and dreams. The songs of whales, the curling of ferns, the rush of white water, and the fire of dying stars are all adding to this symphony of mystery. And I stand mute by the wonder of it all.
I feel my heart bursting with gratitude- to the Earth, to the Cosmos, to the Mystery. I feel compassion for all beings that each experience life in their own key. In the end, there is only Love.
'Dumbstruck with awe'... I love that phrase!